Waiting for Saturday 

I’m sitting here alone on the couch, 2 1/2 days away from having my last baby. My thoughts drift off to my last pregnancy, the birth, the first time I saw my child. The first time I held him… 

He was in the NICU. I couldn’t see him for 24 hours after birth because I couldn’t get out of bed due to issues from the delivery. When I was finally able to be taken to see him in a wheelchair, I couldn’t hold him because he was still on oxygen in his isolette. That was one of the most difficult times. 

When I was finally able to hold him, I remember that he was laying in his isolette, crying, hooked up to lots of tubes and wires. The Instant I took him into my arms and held his tiny 5 pound body against my chest, he calmed and went to sleep. It was incredible. That was all I needed to go from nervous and insecure about taking care of this tiny, fragile being to being confident in my abilities to care for him. The love was indescribable. 

Though I hope for a completely different experience in 2 1/2 days as far as the circumstances of birth with this baby, I look forward to experiencing that pure joy, love and the tender, sweet moments that new life brings. 

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About Eli's Mommy

I am a mother and a kitty cat lover. I'm a little girlie and a lot geeky. I would do anything in the world for my children. I've been described with many words, ranging from compassionate to mysterious. I suppose I am a complex person, an old soul from my birth. There is a depth to me that no one has ever come close to experiencing, and probably never will. I wanted so much to become a nurse. I've always wanted to help others. Unfortunately, my life took a very different path. I have a lot of health issues which have left me disabled. That won't stop me from helping other people whenever and however possible. Please, please follow me. You won't be disappointed, I promise! View all posts by Eli's Mommy

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