I’m Not Liking This…

I really dislike this time of year. I think I have seasonal depression,  if that’s actually a thing. It hit me a couple days ago as I was outside with the puppy… I think.

The weather makes me feel blah. Although I love nighttime and darkness, I hate that our days are getting so short.

I despise the upcoming holidays, which have been completely ruined by consumerism. I don’t even acknowledge the holidays until new years eve, which was fun going downtown okc for the big party with CM. I don’t know what will happen this new years eve.

Honestly, if I could hibernate until then, I would. Every October I get in this state of depression and it doesn’t relent until spring. I have a long wait ahead of me.

Once upon a time I loved all the seasons. But I was young,  my kids were small.

Life has taken me to thousands of different places since then. I think some of the most difficult times for me have happened in these few months and maybe I just get triggered each year around this time…

This post is going nowhere. I have a long drive to the dr in the morning so I guess I’ll try to sleep…

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About Eli's Mommy

I am a mother and a kitty cat lover. I'm a little girlie and a lot geeky. I would do anything in the world for my children. I've been described with many words, ranging from compassionate to mysterious. I suppose I am a complex person, an old soul from my birth. There is a depth to me that no one has ever come close to experiencing, and probably never will. I wanted so much to become a nurse. I've always wanted to help others. Unfortunately, my life took a very different path. I have a lot of health issues which have left me disabled. That won't stop me from helping other people whenever and however possible. Please, please follow me. You won't be disappointed, I promise! View all posts by Eli's Mommy

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