Why Do I Enjoy Slot Machines?

At first I didn’t make the connection. For some reason the question occurred to me this evening. I have social anxiety disorder. Really. I don’t have lots of money to waste. I don’t smoke anymore and second hand smoke stinks to me now…the list goes on.

I think I figured it out. When I sit at a slot machine and begin to play, I escape from reality. I am so concentrated on the game that I notice nothing around me. Nothing. I can sit at one machine for hours and never know what is happening around me.

The casino is one of the places I can go and do something mind-numbing for awhile. I don’t have to think about what’s going on in life. Just watch the reels spin, my fingers the control. And maybe win a little money, that’s just a bonus.

I’ve lost a lot of money and I’ve won a lot of money gambling. But that’s not why I do it. Are you ever shocked when you learn something about yourself like this? I don’t ponder why I do the things I do very often, but when I do… Dang! What have you learned about yourself recently?

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About Eli's Mommy

I am a mother and a kitty cat lover. I'm a little girlie and a lot geeky. I would do anything in the world for my children. I've been described with many words, ranging from compassionate to mysterious. I suppose I am a complex person, an old soul from my birth. There is a depth to me that no one has ever come close to experiencing, and probably never will. I wanted so much to become a nurse. I've always wanted to help others. Unfortunately, my life took a very different path. I have a lot of health issues which have left me disabled. That won't stop me from helping other people whenever and however possible. Please, please follow me. You won't be disappointed, I promise! View all posts by Eli's Mommy

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